oooohhhh ive got a new journal!!!

so just let me know if youd like to know the link... :)

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[	Current Music	|	bradenburg #5 - bach	]

okay, okay. im back. but does it matter? lol. for real, though...does anyone actually read? maybe im just talking to myself sort of...hmf. well if i am writing to myself, i think im going to stop. its kind of a waste of time if ya ask me!! but if someone actually does read, then ill keep writing. ya know, its like the only way to keep in touch/keep yourselves updated cuz there really is no other mean of communication goin on here! and thats also pretty sad. i hate to see things fade away, but i suppose sometimes its just meant to be, yea? but sometimes not. HM!!

okay, so in case you are reading, lets see...

ive been really busy lately (whats new, right?). school is insane-olaaa! i have an exam tomorrow (music) and an exam on friday (biology) - eeeeeeeekkk! i studied so hard today thus far, and i am wiped out. i still need to go over my biology notesSLASHread some stuff. its not gonna be too fun.

today when i was practicing my violin, my phone randomly played the message thing, and i went to the voicemail CENTRE and it said "you have one.new.voice.message.from.phone number...218" .. and right then i got so excited because i thought a friend from home was calling me! buttttttttt ya. totally wasnt. for sure it was my UNCLE calling LOL. hm...

sooo just a few days till SPRING BREAK!!!  i cant wait to leave the homework and worries behind. aaa OASIS here i comee! we're flying into orlando on sunday, staying there for a while, then going to a little beach (cant remember the name of it) around st. pete & clearwater area...on the GULF o MEXICO coast!! SCOREEEE. cant wait. we got a room right on the water. its going to be SOOO FUN!!! i think my favorite sound of all time is hearing waves crash onto the shore. WOW. its so amazin'! and i LOVE getting up early on vacation (like around 6:30) and just walking the beach, letting your feet sink into the sand, taking in the beautiful sunrise, then going to a teeny tiny lil breakfast joint & eatin' the fresh fruit. omg aaaa its all just so great!!

mkay, ive really gotta get back on task! so if somebody does read this, please let me know. if youre afraid of the comment button, send me an im. thats painless, right?! otherwise (if i dont hear from anybody!) im gonna just end it right here. yup. cold turkey!

okay, girls & boys...have a great night ~ dream big!

hugs&kisses to all!

hello.goodbye.im gone.

BAM.

[	Current Mood	|	contemplative	]
[	Current Music	|	shhh	]

well i sure studied hard. haha.

mkay guys, i know someone has to be reading my journal! but no comments = so sad. yes, really, it is sad. lol...so you know what to do!

okay, this is super.de.duper random, but id just like to take a poll:

which lifestyle can yall see me living when im older (after med. school)::::

a. big city life. im thinking nyc or la or i s'pose msp area. lol. im an orthopedic surgeon in a huge GINORMOUS hospital. my house is very modern, and im constantly on the go...business meetings & dinner parties galore!!

b. southern livin'. smaller, family-ish area of raleigh, nc...im still an orthopedic surgeon, but a smaller hospital maybe. livin' the slow & easy-going life. i go to pta meetings & am in lotsa community organizations, always volunteering and that sorta thang! my house is brick colonial...and umm cant think of anything else lol.

c. even farther south! im talkin like...tiny beach town with a marina. central america perhaps? like...whats the term...FISHING VILLAGE. there we go. i live in a simple, tiny house. when i wake up in the morning, the first thing i see is the sun rising. i can hear the ocean crashing just outside my window. i work in literally a hut of a hospital & i speak spanish 80% of the time.

i can really picture myself in every single situation. my heart loves every situation. i just cant decide which one is "me" the most. so all im askin is for your opinion, please & thank you!!

sAhArAh.sArAh.

[	Current Mood	|	alright, thank you!	]
[	Current Music	|	a lil jesse m.!	]

i should be studying right now, but i just had the sudden urge to write in here. im not really sure what to write about...and it seems like i really never do! haha.

i have a music exam on thursday and a biology exam on friday. its gonna be INSANEEEE. utterly insane. i have so much to do this week before headin down to florida!! goshh thats gonna be fun. cant even wait! i want to be skinny, though. and it pretty much sucks because its a week away, and i cant get much thinner by then lol. so sad, so very sad.

i put up SO MANY things on my wall in the last week or so. it looks TOTALLY AWESOME mhm :) lol. i think itd be cool if i liek took fabric and just glued it to each wall. haha. i want a pottery barn dorm room, too. thatd be PURTY. actually, next year, im thinkin an apartment sounds good lol. dorm life is purty fun! but yeahh...apartment sounds good. i cant believe im that old. to have an apartment. wow! ill be 20 next year, and thats just scarrry lol.

went to starbucks today. pretty sure i thought the line was going to be made up of zeroo people, and YA. there were definitely about 15 people in line lol. i was a bit scared id be late getting to the rink, but i made it jusss in time!

mkay, im going to go study for a bit. i want to learn chapter 28 reall quick (so ill actually know what doc w. is talking about in lecture tomorrow)!  ill be back to write about more nothingness when im done yall!!!!

saharasarah

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[	Current Music	|	nothing...it IS almost 1am!	]

im pretty much very tired lol.  just got back a little while ago from emily's sister's hosue...and omg i watched the notebook! finally, i know i know! i lovedddd it so incredibly much - of course! its just so sweet and perfect ahhh :) lol

"he sat in front of the mirror for a half hour without even turning away!" . . . "OMG hes naked!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!" cue: shut eyes! LOL EMMA LEE. seriously, that was so funny HAAA!

okay, i need to get me some rest! i dont start coaching till later tomorrow (well, today), but i do need to study hard, and i plan on doing that in the early morning hours! :) sooo i will write more later, kids!

[	Current Mood	|	optimistic	]
[	Current Music	|	nature...my window is open!	]

it is SO BEAUTIFUL outside right now. OMG. i love this kind of weather so much. its not terribly hot, but its not frrreezing, either! nearly perfect. the wind blows just right as to make your hair blow ever so softly...haha. but really, its wonderful! i studied biology in the grass (sitting on my green fleece DFSC blanket) over near the tennis courts. it was pretty quiet, except when those football-minus-the-gear players were yelling out random stuff! i got quite a bit done, too...so thatsss a big relief! i "learned" chapters 25 & 27, so tomorrow i'll tackle chapters 28 & 29, and itll all be good! carpe diem, man!!

ia ora te natura, e mea arofa teie ao nei!

yeehhh, thats right! :) but oh gawsh, i do still need to do the other homework...haha. ahh right now sounds like a magnificent time for that! now go sieze the day, girls and boys!

saharasarah

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[	Current Music	|	havana daydreamin'	]

i'd like to start off by saying congratulations becauseee.....

cLaYgIrL 11 30: I GOT INTO COLLEGE!!

yay! congrats jess!!!! :D LOL.

mkay well thats it fer now lol. im starvinnnn...so i think ill go get a bite to eat then start the LOADS N LOADS of homework that need to get done. im thinkin the library sounds like a good plan for the evening. maybe ill just bring the laptop and go online..haha..

mkay, uh CYAAA ;)

saharasarah

that'd be a really good s/n, eh? lol

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[	Current Music	|	creola	]

when i was just reading my bible, i found the greatest passge. well, one of God's many great passages!  the bible reads:

"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out--plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.  When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I'll listen. When you come looking for me, you'll find me. When you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed." --Jeremiah 29:10-14

Isn't that just so cool!?  Mkay yaaa lol :)

Just wanted to add that before I go sleep...have a wonderful night's sleep!!

heartsahara

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[	Current Music	|	margaritaville :)	]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH back from the JIMMY BUFFETT CONCERT with clay & jim!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg it was FANTABULOUS!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh TOTALLY MAJOR FUNNN!!!!!!!

um CAROLINA GIRLS can partayy it up, yall!!!!!

there are sharks in the water...FINSSSS!!!!!!

we learn a LOT at the jimmy buffett concerts, don't we?!  all about nutrition...and definintely geography girls and boys!!! haha

ahhh im such a parrotthead at heart. for real, though! i wanna live it up in the caribbean someday :) oh ya, i'll DEFINITELY be a "medicine woman" (opposite the role of sean connery in medicine man) hahaa!

but now i think about the good times, down in the caribbean sunshine! in my younger days i was so bad, laughin' about all the fun we had

ia ora te natura, e mea arofa teie ao nei! ia ora te natura, e mea arofa teie ao nei!!!

mkayy kids, its about time i go to bed..or start the homework, ya know!!!!!

leave a message if you are a parrothead!!!

sarah anne buffett.........................haa just playin foos! ;)

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[	Current Music	|	clickity click of the keyboard	]

what up HOMIEZZZ.  im in the computer lab right now. just did some stuff for school...ya know!!

im feeling a bit under the weather right now..and its really no fun. i should sit outside and get some fresh air. i did that after class today, and it felt GREATT. the sun felt sooo warm...ahh! It was simply fantastic.

two weeks from today ill be laying on a beach in florida! Ahhhh can't wait. should be fun FER REAL MANN. yess...

well, this has gone from lame to pointless, so i be leavin yalls now! im sure ill be back tonight (due to lack of interest in the homework/studying), so prepare yourself for more! ha!

-- sarah

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[	Current Music	|	wide open spaces	]

it feels so late, but its only 8:30. is such a strange feeling, eh?

i pretty much studied and went to classes today. wasnt all that eventful. english was actually alright...our prof. talks a mile a minute, so it really goes by fast (which ROCKSS 100%) because i really think i may die if he talked any slower - haha.

this weekend was majorly fun, mhm! went to nikta's house in leesville and studied lots lol. and i went out to lunch/dinner with her family and a friend at a seafood place...my gosh it was huge! LOL. but it was quite delish! when i was driving back i thought i was going to fall asleep omg. and then it started pouring and i couldnt see well. so scary!

ive actually gotta get going. if theres a chance, i'll write more later about my uneventful life lol.

*sarah anne

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[	Current Music	|	for having you to love	]

hmm i dont think ive updated in a while. my bad!

well i turned 19 this past tuesday. i feel so old. i have one year left being a teenager. and then 20. lol. that just sounds way too old! wow. its insane, really. but im so excited for the future!

okay, today i really am tired. i know i've said i was tired in the past, but i had nothing like last night (besides the weekend at camp dogwood..lol) to measure it to. my twin sister called me last night at around midnight....and we talked for 4 hours. yup, until 4am. LOL. i set my alarm for 8:20, but i dont even remember getting up to turn it off. but thankfull i accidentally woke up at 9am lol. otherwise, ya know, i wouldve totally not made it to the rink in time lol. but im so glad i stayed up last night, because the conversation was just purely heart to heart. we have so much more to talk about now, and im so thankful. for everything. ahhhhhhh 0:-)

BUT im tired. so i think im either gonna take a nap or start the homework...there's a lot that needs to get done!

have a blessed day!!

sarah anne

[	Current Mood	|	productive	]
[	Current Music	|	the tide is high <> haha	]

today was a verrrrry long day! i woke up in the middle of a dream at about 7am (when i was planning on getting up), but the dream was so real, and i guess i had to continue with it. lol. i dont even remember what it was about, though...sad, i know...

so i left here at about 10:15 to go to the rink, and i didnt get back until about 4:30. it was verrry long, but really good! my long was actually pretty good again (thank goodness!).  i hope it'll be ready for testing next month! oh YA! i had my first lesson with candy today, too! shes really sweet. it was gooood and ya. :D. too bad i can only afford a half hour a week. lol. (if i get paid $40/hour, just imagine how much she charges!!)

so after i got back, i did homework. and a LOT of it. so im proud. lol YAY! except im still working on it..haha

i talked to MISS maria sperduto this evening! shes such a sweetie..and soo hillarious!! and YUP, shes def. getting a journal :)

UM i actually dont know what to write. and i really should finish my english anywho! so have a nice night and YAA keep it real ;)

<3 you know who i am SILLY! haa :D

[	Current Mood	|	exhausted	]
[	Current Music	|	107.9 triple play weekend <3 (john mayer right now)	]

i am the epitomy of tired today. i couldnt sleep last night, so i watched gross anatomy, and THENN at 2 o'clock this morning there was a fire drill...AHHH! i was a bit irritated lol. so we were out there for a while and then FINALLY they let us back in. and ya, i pretty much didnt fall asleep till sometime soon after 2:45 or 3 this morning.

i just got back from the rink...it was good :) and tomorrow i get my lesson with candy! today she confirmed and she asked me if she could do me sometime during the first hour of ice time...yaaa.

i have lots to do this weekend (as in h-dubya). and i have to do lotsa laundry, too. im thinkin its gonna all have to get done today, too...cuz tomorrow ill be gone at the rink from like 1030am to 4pm. and thats like a big chunk of the day, and its right in the middle...so ya.

last night the rents went to dinner with masao & iko (dad's biz people from japan), and OMG he invited me to go to japan this summer...and he said i could bring someone with!! but i dont know if people really like japan lol. i think its pretty cool. i mean, tokyo is fun. its like...busy and everything. lights..it kinda reminds me of nyc! but masao lives in a smaller city, and its on a lake. the area is a little boring, but he lives in liek a mansion lol. and he has a tennis court, yachts, tonss of cars..and ya, just lotsa toys lol. so i suppose thatd make it a little better :) haha. AND (big bonus) he'd pay for EVERYTHING (im sure) lol.

i want to watch blue crush tonight. i didnt watch it yesterday, and i was kinda gonna. hMM!  weeellll. i best get a move on it! i think ill go read under the belk tower, and then study some bio in my corner castle room at the library! its a perfect place for a nap..i swear! its like a round room thats two stories high (on the 3rd floor) and there are windows all the way around and you can see uptown (downtown) off in the distance..and at about 4pm, the sun is just right that if you pull two chairs together next to the left side of the room, the sun hits you perfectlyyy and if feels like youre laying on a beach in mexico..(minus the crashing waves & crazy tourists running around!) hahaa! wow. random...i could so totally live the life of a beach bum. actually, i could picture myself doing so many things. but yess, beach bum fits me. ya knoww..wake up every morning to the sound of the ocean, throw on some summer birks, a swimsuit & shorts, and go surfing, work in the marina, swim & scuba dive. ahhhh that is seriously THE life. lol. and i love the smell of suntan lotion with a passion. woww. and OMG! at night, just going like downtown and chillin with the locals yeehhhH!! lol. if i lived in playa del carmen, i'd hit up karen's pizza EVERY NIGHT. that place is the SHITT. seriously though, it is so cool. can i take a picture of your monkey?! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHHAHAHAHAHHAH. okayYYY! lol. oh yeah, and if i did live somewhere like that..or even farther south..if i didnt live in a beach house/hut thing, i'd live on one of the hut houses OVER THE WATER. omg those are cool. i think they might be in rio de janeiro. i cant remember.

okay, going to go do something with myself (besides daydream about the BEACHHH) :D have a great one yous guys!

((hugss)).&.xxKISSESxx

heart.sab.

[	Current Mood	|	jubilant	]
[	Current Music	|	with you	]

today was simply fabulous. well, music class was pretty boring, but the rest of the day was fabulous!

i got to the rink a little earlier than normal (traffic was not so busy today!), and alicia was there warming up, so i changed into my dress quick...then when i was done changing, they started playing this REALLY old music on the public session (i cant remember what it was noww though..lol..go figure!), so we sang along and acted weird...and ya, im sure people thought we were pretty insane. but it was quite fun!!

so after that, i got my skates on super fast and went and talked to miss candy about lessons! i was a little nervous, but it was alright. lol. after she told me like when shes available and how much she charges, she was like "so..thank you!" lol. it that was a little strange...but im starting lessons with her on sunday!

and THEN the sessions were so good. my program was almost perfectly clean! which ya, totally thrilled me! and then at the end, i thought id try some 3sows!...lol. at first, they really sucked. but then at the very end, i stood up on one (with a quick touch down)! so that was INVIGORATING. lol.

im really excited for this week to be over, because its gonna be stressful. well, it already is. i have a calc quiz tomorrow, and then on FRIDAY, i have a calc test AND a political science test. so once its all over, i will be ever-so-relieved.

the rents are going on a cruise on friday. im jealous. actually, no. im going to florida in march, so yeah..tis all good!  eric has to stay with grandpa & grandma and he doesnt want to (poor baby .. lol). OOPS! you read my journal, dont you!? haa!! j/k..lol. (ERIC - random thought...does rod know we have lj's? we should tell him..and OMG rod needs a journal in the worst way. lol. itd be hillarious to read!)

its embers birthday tomorrow! i got her present last week, and ive been so excited to give it to her! i almost gave in and gave it to her last week lol...but time passed quickly, and its finally tomorrow..so yay! im going to make a pretty sign for our door tonight that says..ya know..HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMBER! lol. :D

i love getting email. lol. i got lots today, so yeah, that was exciting. :D. umm YA. oh! someone is sending me a video too. lol...caseeyyy..hahaa. she was one year old in her CRIB!!!! hahahahaha. nasty. simply nasty. lol.

OMG today, emily and i had a little convo after i left rdh. mhm..but i must withhold the information spoken of as we dont know who has access to what! haha..so strange. lol.

so yeah, that be all from me for now! im getting to bed VERY early tonight. i need lots of sleep...so tired right now!  i hope each and every one of you have a fabulous evening sitting at your computers :)

ciao!

[	Current Mood	|	cheerful	]
[	Current Music	|	sarah's november 04 mix	]

well, i moved all the furniture around in my room, and i must say, its looking quite fine :) its very..functional now. i love it. my desk is in front of the window so i can look out and daydream while i do my homework..haha! and then my bed is beside it against the wall...so yeah, its all good :)

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANCE! i hope you daaaaaaaaaaanceee.

sorry, im listening to that song lol. ummm so i am really super excited for SUMMER. i hope it comes quickly, because i dont know how long ill last! its just always so great..and yeah. this summer will even be better. :D

gosh, i dont have anything entertaining to write. my life is pretty boring lol. i should spice it up, ehhhh?

well, i guess ill write more later on if i have some time :)

<3 sar

[	Current Mood	|	grateful	]
[	Current Music	|	patch adams	]

Michael is the kind of guy you love to hate.  He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say.  When someone would ask him  how He was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!" He was a natural motivator.

If an employee was having a bad day, Michael was there telling theemployee how to look on the positive side of the situation. Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Michael and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time.  How do you do it?" Michael replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today.  You can choose to be in a good mood or ...  you can choose to be in a bad mood.  I choose to be in a good mood."

Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can choose to learn from it.  I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or...  I can point out the positive side of life.  I choose the positive side of life. "Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested. "Yes, it is," Michael said.  "Life is all about choices.  When you cut
away all the junk, every situation is a choice.  You choose how you react to situations.  You choose how people affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood.  The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life."

I reflected on what Michael said.  Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business.  We lost touch, but I often thought bout him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it. Several years later, I heard that Michael was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Michael was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back. I saw Michael about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins Wanna see my scars?" I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place. "The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter," Michael replied.  "Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or...I could choose to die.  I chose to live." "Weren't you scared?  Did you lose consciousness?" I asked. Michael continued, "the paramedics were great. They kept telling me I  was going to be fine.  But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man."  I knew I needed to take action." What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me," said Michael. She asked if I was allergic to anything.  'Yes, I replied' The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply.  I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Gravity'." Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live.  Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead." Michael lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude...  I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully.

Attitude, after all, is everything.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34. After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.